friday, 29 october 2010
Things start going wrong today. Michiel doesn’t arrive then after our first interaction, so i’m a bit stuck in space. Adva has preparation stress for the Dominokingdom next day in nadine, so she arrives later for the breakfast. Lilia becomes her stand-in for the first part of the breakfast score. We pick up the conversation I had with Adva the day before, and use the time to discuss the potential of this workshop formula to use in different contexts. We also precise the need for modifications to the scores: they have to be communicative to the outside and the others, so that their affective potential is released. Maybe we should ban computers out of the scores, since a bunch of people sitting around a table working is not really stretching out the concept to its fullest power. We also try to come up with different ways to understand the scoring: not only based on time, but on musicality, on the spatial constructions, on the affective landscape, etc... Repetition in this environment becomes a very complex given, residing on the different possible parameters to follow. Right now every one is kind of struggling throughout this enormous amount of choices to make at every single moment of performing the score. Also on a documentation level this poses a lot of questions, since everyone always only carries one perspective on what is happening. So the question arises how to think of a fragmented but communal form of archiving. We try to bring it into our communal talks, but what prevails is the question of (self-induced) power: the scores are quite stringent and demanding, and some participants need to blame an outside force for the power exercised over every single moment of their day. on the other hand everybody knows this power is self-induced and can thus not be turned into a refusal towards the exterior. You can only fight yourself here. But if you fail, you also deny the other ones the completion of their stories. It is at moments quite stressful to realize your interwovenness with the ‘bigger group’, the fact that not doing something in these kinds of circumstances is a clear statement of absence to the other’s, since they perceive this as a clear gap in their work.